Stoner人生中的高光时刻 - 爱情线 - Chapter XII - Part Three
Her eyes, that he had thought to be a dark brown or black, were a deep violet. Sometimes they caught the dim light of a lamp in the room and glittered moistly; he could turn his head one way and another, and the eyes beneath his gaze would change color as he moved, so that it seemed, even in repose, they were never still. Her flesh, that had at a distance seemed so cool and pale, had beneath it a warm ruddy undertone like light flowing beneath a milky translucence. And like the translucent flesh, the calm and poise and reserve which he had thought were herself, masked a warmth and playfulness and humor whose intensity was made possible by the appearance that disguised them.
之前在google上搜索书评的时候，偶然发现Stoner也被改编成了电影（貌似还没上映），主演是《海边的曼彻斯特》里的男主角。诶......与我对Stoner的个人想象差距有点大。不过其实我也不怎么了解那位男演员啦，他留在我脑中的印象就是电影中那个深夜出门买酒，忘了安防防火板，导致壁炉火星飞溅，烧毁房屋、痛失子女的不靠谱老爸。其后半生，他陷于愧悔哀痛无法自拔，过着一种破罐破摔式的生活。（一僧一道，快来，此处有历经大悲痛之人需得度化。诶......不过依据度化作品的传统，我们这些并非仙人投胎转世，不具备神性，也非草木之灵的平凡小人物，似乎并不在他们关照的范围之内......🤦♀️）
那部电影啊，看不大懂......缺乏经验与共鸣，磨磨蹭蹭看完了，也就算了。印象中那男主角长得细腻白嫩，与书中多次提及的Stoner粗粝且呈深棕色的皮肤全然不符。读到这段的时候，又忍不住猜想电影中饰演KD的女演员会是谁，她的眼睛是否能恰如其分地还原书中这段细腻而传神的描写？大约是不能的吧。
因为《荆棘鸟》的缘故超爱蓝眼睛，甚至一度想着以后该养只哈士奇，这样就能天天瞧见蓝色的大眼睛了。呆在澳洲的时候常见白人金发碧眼的孩子们，躺在婴儿拖车里、骑在自行车上、或是慵懒地倚在爸妈肩头。出于礼貌不好意思直溜溜地盯着人家的脸蛋瞧，但反正经常有种上去捏一把的冲动🤷♀️。
回到文本，脑袋里冒出一句话：时光就这样在你的眼中放慢了脚步。
In his forty-third year William Stoner learned what others, much younger, had learned before him: that the person one loves at first is not the person one loves at last, and that love is not an end but a process through which one person attempts to know another.
They were both very shy, and they knew each other slowly, tentatively; they came close and drew apart, they touched and withdrew, neither wishing to impose upon the other more than might be welcomed. Day by day the layers of reserve that protected them dropped away, so that at last they were like many who are extraordinarily shy, each open to the other, unprotected, perfectly and unselfconsciously at ease.
“一件事情的毕业，永远是另一件事情的开启。” 第一次读到就赶紧背了下来，总觉言语背后藏着无尽的深意。可惜之前不懂，总觉得只要真心实意地喜欢上某个人，互相表明了心意，那这感情就会是一辈子的事业，任凭再多挫折障碍，也是阻不断的。Naive💆♀️
于是嘛，虽说断的干干净净，心中还是留了那么点念想，毕竟也是自己一去不复返的少年时光么。读到这一段，心中便忽然得了大安慰。是嘛是嘛，怎么之前从没人和我说过这样的道理呢？母上大人常因准确预测了我初恋的夭亡结局而喜不自胜，可她的说理与建议对我常常毫无用处，因为里面有一堆逻辑谬误啊......Conclusion的正确性毋庸置疑，可具体的Argument🤦♀️......当真是典型的以一种错误的论证方式得出了正确的结论。回头想想，当初抱着一劳永逸的心态落地悉尼，本身就错了。互相深切认知的旅程，明明才刚刚开始。结局不确定，更需要双方去努力磨合与适应。生活中多如牛毛的细节差异，现在想来到挺像一位位“银针杀手”。细针而已，被戳到了疼那么一下下，连血都未必会出的。可又有谁能挨得住日积月累的隐痛，藏得住内里的伤痕呢？罢了罢了，各自去吧。
说回文本，感觉Stoner与KD超适合先结婚后恋爱诶！
可惜可惜。“君生我未生，我生君已老。恨不生同时，日日与君好。”
