Do everyboday still remember how is your feeling when you given the first speech on the stage. excited, nervous, fears?

put all your feeling together, luckly, I have none of them because first time is allowed to read the paper.

I think I have a good memory, I can still remember Helen borrowed 100 RMB ten years ago, even she still not yet paid back now. I still remember before marriage ,my husband promised to buy a villa, although he didn't make it after hundreds year later.

when the second speech time, I have to rely on my memory without paper' s help. so guess what' happened,

My right brain had nothing left, my left brain had nothing right. Finally, I heard a voice. Someone was calling my name, Donna please. I went up and held it with trembling hands - the doctor's hand, oh no, it should be the host's hand.

my minds suddenly went blank, my eyes looked at  sky, body language changed to shaking hands and shivering body, from audience, I just like a straight tree stood here, how awkward am I !

where is my confidence ? when the reality has great different from the expectation,I felt lost and I spent a lot of time to think about why and how , until I found a story about how a positive attitude changed life.

Two people are building walls. There is someone asked them:

"do you think it's hard to build them? "

The first person stretched out the cocoon and depressed said,

"yes, the work is too hard, I really felt tired ."

The second person said with a smile,

"I don't think it is hard, because I am building a beautiful house, and building a beautiful and prosperous city."

Few Years later, the first man was still building walls, and the second became a famous architect.

I think it's better to learn from the story and change a different view to look at the bad things we met. because different attitude towards life, life will also return you different ending.

So I spend several month without speech but sit under stage just like you all ,to listen, listen all fellow members speech, I marked down their advantages and what else I can learn from.

I spend several month without speech but ask for advice from experienced toastmaster fellow member. they taught how to open our body position and summarize the speech with outline plus keywords.

I spend several month to restarted a new pathway, I tried to prepared two speeches every two weeks so that I can get more chance to practice.

After that, I also found that my attitude towards life had changed. I don't worry again even I happened unexpected things, once I got a positive attitude, every trying I did is meaningful.

Several months later, when I passed double level2, when I stand on the stage to give speech now, I can feel my comfortable back here,

I also would like call this is kinds of growth. Growth is the gap between your imagination and reality, when you falled into the gap, we called frustration, when you climb out, we called growth.

We can't control the reality but we can learn how to get along with the reality and use positive attitude to reality , we will see more beautiful happen .

Life is a long long journey ,there was lots of diffculties and obstables, To keep a positive attitude, our life will eventually go better.