当你观察内心的感受时,那感受就终结了。尽管感受已经终结,如果内在那个“能观心”,那个努力观察、审查、思索的人格,依然与那感受相分隔,那么内心就依然处于二元对立状态。所以,要明白我们是如何观察内在感受的,这非常重要的。
以很常见的感受——嫉妒为例。我们都知道嫉妒是什么,那么你是如何观察自己的嫉妒心的呢?当你审视内心的嫉妒时,你把“嫉妒”与自己分割开来,你充当观察员,并试图改变、修正嫉妒,或者自我辩解:这嫉妒心其实合情合理,云云。此时,有一个内在人格、一个审查官、一个心体,从嫉妒中跳了出来,去观察嫉妒。嫉妒可能会短暂消失,但它还会回来;之所以回来,是因为你根本未看明白:那股嫉妒就是你不可分离的一部分。
我的意思是,一旦你想给那感受冠上一个名字,贴上一张标签,那么你已经把那感受置入你的旧有框架内,这个旧框架,就是“能观心”,一个由言语、理念、是非观所构成的分离心体。但,如果你不为那感受冠名——这需要极大的觉知力,极大的当下领悟力,然后你会发现,此时那个能观心、思维心,亦即那个自我中心、那个评判的坐标原点,已经消失不见了,此时你与那感受一体不分,此时并没有一个“你”,去感受那嫉妒。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
If You Do Not Name That Feeling
When you observe a feeling, that feeling comes to an end. But even though the feeling comes to an end, if there is an observer, a spectator, a censor, a thinker who remains apart from the feeling, then there is still a contradiction. So it is very important to understand how we look at a feeling.
Take, for instance, a very common feeling: jealousy. We all know what it is to be jealous. Now, how do you look at your jealousy? When you look at that feeling, you are the observer of jealousy as something apart from yourself. You try to change jealousy, to modify it, or you try to explain why you are justified in being jealous, and so on and so forth. So there is a being, a censor, an entity apart from jealousy who observes it. For the moment jealousy may disappear, but it comes back again; and it comes back because you do not really see that jealousy is part of you.
… What I am saying is that the moment you give a name, a label to that feeling, you have brought it into the framework of the old; and the old is the observer, the separate entity who is made up of words, of ideas, of opinions about what is right and what is wrong…. But if you don’t name that feeling—which demands tremendous awareness, a great deal of immediate understanding—then you will find that there is no observer, no thinker, no center from which you are judging, and that you are not different from the feeling. There is no “you” who feels it.
MAY 10