As I Began to Love Myself
Charlie Chaplin on his 70th Birthday
As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is 'Authenticity'.
As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me.
Today I call it 'Respect'.
As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it 'Maturity'.
As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm.
Today I call it 'Self-Confidence'.
As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.
Today I call it 'Simplicity'.
As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health - food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.
Today I know it is 'Love of Oneself'.
As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time.
Today I discovered that is 'Modesty'.
As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where 'Everything' is happening.
Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it 'Fulfillment'.
As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally.
Today I call this connection 'Wisdom of The Heart'.
We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born.
Today I know that is "Life"!
《当我真正开始爱自己》是卓别林70岁生日当天创作的一首诗歌，一位喜剧大师，在迟暮之年，褪尽一切铅华，选择归于本真。这首诗表达出了卓别林的生活和人生态度，爱护身体、活出自我、笑对人生、追求精神和心灵的愉悦......从去年看到这首诗歌就一直很喜欢，一直在告诉我自己：少一点对世界愤懑与凉薄，多一点努力和毅力，认真的去爱自己，去获得心灵深度的宁静！
有了这首诗歌的对照，曾经我一度认为我不爱我自己，但学习的越多，渐渐地发现我是如此的爱我自己。
经过觉察，我发现了我有一个生命模式，那就是对自己不接纳的一面采取的是切断的模式。我对我的关系做了个冥想，闪过的画面是我坐在地上，双腿弯曲，双手环抱住我自己，看着周围，我的四周围着一堵墙。当有一个功课，让我对财富进行一个忏悔时，我的画面依然是如此，与做关系并没有不同。
我是如此的爱我自己啊，在我的成长中受到了伤害，我所做的就是把自己抱住，在我的周围竖起高高的墙来保护我自己。我内在的需要没有被满足，没有被看见，我受伤了，委屈了，采取了切断模式来保护我自己。我的感觉、带给我伤痛的生命故事都被我放在了某个角落，安安静静的，不出来影响我的日常生活。
小时候的我还不够强大，若不采用这种模式，根本就活不出现在的我，我是爱我自己的。我现在需要做的是让现在强大的我去拥抱那个受伤的内在小孩，把他的能量赢回来，活出我自己。
最近很喜欢一句话，“行动中的人是没有困难的”，所以我要行动起来，开通我的财富管道，关系管道，绽放我自己。
