今天是玫瑰静心《笑》的第五天，我做了一个决定，就是想要用三个小时去探索我的时间线，从过去出生到童年，青年，成年的过程当中，
我去自我嘲笑，或者是用笑去替代这个整个生命的背景。
当老师和同学欢呼的时候，我还在时间线里面，我觉得好惊讶，居然三个小时到了？！时间过得好快呀，我有些欣喜，同时有些犹豫，所以跟老师去确认，我自己的做法是否符合课程所要引导我们去到的方向。
老师说：“你这个是头脑的笑。我们要深入自己内在核心的这个丹田，在那个部分像孩子般天真的笑。那就是最美的。”
我发现，我三个小时都走偏了，但这个不是关键，虽然走偏了，但是我在其中体验到了拥抱的美妙，
因为我走我自己，时间线，漂浮在半空中，看我过去的人生的时候，有很多傻事，丑事儿或者是沧桑、创伤，我都在一个更宽广的笑中，转化这底层的背景音乐
在我身边拢聚了五个枕头，几乎每前进一个片段，我都深深地拥抱这些枕头。
第一个枕头，代表是我自己，小文，那个脆弱的自己，那个迷茫的，但是青春懵懂的不断探索，有力量的，但是又备受打击的自己。
拥抱完了之后呢，我。然后外面第二个枕头是妈妈，第三个枕头在外面，是爸爸。所以现在的我抱着爸爸、抱着妈妈，抱着过去小文的我，妈妈和爸爸，
枕头，柔软的感觉，让我觉得，真的是。那种身体的每一个肌肉，骨髓里都能够感受到拥抱的美妙，那种契合，那种绵绵不绝，
第四个枕头是我的兄弟玩伴，第五个枕头代表的是我的第五个枕头代表的是我的女朋友在时间线过程中，所以基本上一路走下去，我就抱着五个枕头，那种美妙，
深深地有一个决定，就是课程结束了，我就要去享受拥抱每一个人。虽然课程走岔了，但美妙的拥抱开始了。
Today is the fifth day of Rose's meditation "Smile". I made a decision that I would like to spend three hours exploring my timeline, from birth in the past to childhood, youth and adulthood.
I laugh at myself or replace this whole background of life with laughter.
When the teachers and classmates cheered, I was still in the timeline. I was so surprised that it took me three hours? ! How time flies! I am delighted and hesitant, so I went to confirm with the teacher whether my own practice is in line with the direction the course is to guide us to.
The teacher said, "You are laughing at your head. We should go deep into the inner core of this abdomen and smile like children in that part. That is the most beautiful. "
I found that I had missed my way for three hours, but this was not the key. Although I missed my way, I experienced the beauty of hugging.
Because I walked by myself, the timeline, floating in mid-air, watching my past life, there were many foolish things, disgraceful things or vicissitudes of life, trauma, I all in a broader smile, transform the background music of this bottom layer
There were five pillows gathered around me, and I hugged them deeply almost every time I moved forward.
The first pillow represents myself, Xiaowen, the fragile self, the confused, but youthful, unceasing exploration, the powerful, but battered self.
After the hug, I. Then the second pillow outside is mom, and the third pillow outside is dad. So now I hold my father, my mother, my past Xiaowen, my mother and father.
Pillows, soft feeling, make me feel, really is. Every muscle and bone marrow inside of that kind of body can feel the beauty of hugging, the fit and the continuity.
The fourth pillow is my brother's playmate, the fifth pillow represents my fifth pillow represents my girlfriend in the timeline process, so basically, as I walked along, I held five pillows, which was wonderful.
I have a deep decision, that is, when the course is over, I will enjoy embracing everyone. Although the course was interrupted, a wonderful hug began.
