I miss him,but I missed him.
The pain during the menstrual period is intermittent, lasting for 5 days, once a month, and never absent.And letting him go is also intermittent, with no definite frequency and deadline.
“The dude wasn’t a stranger.But I’d had love and jealously and admity and attraction and respect and the all those complicated feelings that you amass sfter long-term love.But it felt like the benevolent feelings of fixation and the less-generous feelings weren’t quite so present.”
I like to watch TED talks these days. This passage comes from how to get out of broken love.From February to the present September 24th, I was torn from the very beginning, disbelief, anger, regret and self-doubt to the present nostalgia, peace, confidence and blessing.Never put him down, never stopped missing him.My mind often freezes at the moment he opens the door with his blushing face and barking teeth.The sky full of stars is less than him, poetry and the distance are no longer the only ones.The young man in front of me is carrying a heart that is hot and jumping happily, who treats me like a treasure.
Successful people have money, power and reputation, but I have nothing but I feel that I have won the world.In the few days when I entered the learning state in September, I was extremely excited, and felt that the part that was lost from him returned by myself.I told my friend that I felt his traces in my life had completely disappeared, as if he had only appeared in a dream.Some of them expressed doubts, some expressed their blessings and welcomed the new me.
I thought it would be over then, but this essay appeared.I think I just miss it, the story that everyone is envious of after hearing it.I think I just want to relive the countless days I missed him, the train that saw him again and again, and the past love and beloved self full of happiness and satisfaction.But, we can't go back.I have given him all my love, all the disappointment has also existed, whether it was not understood or abandoned later.I didn't deliberately forget or beautify these.I am so awake, I just miss the past soberly instead of wanting to see him.Sometimes I am too sensible and want to try whether the love in my heart can turn things around，even irrationally believe that the pro -phecy that we will be together forever.
However, he don't love me, and I just miss the past.The urge to meet him when I missed him in the past is gone, even if his nickname is singLE, I won't bother him.You don't have to worry about me who reminisces about the past late at night, just go find the partner you think or want.I didn’t want to be disturbed, me and you are no longer us, but just me and you in memory .
I escaped from the muddy and painful days of the past, and gained sour growth after tearing.Now the purity of life has really returned, the inspiration that was suppressed by love in the past has returned.You are the person I'm proud of, but you will never be the partner that holds the hand and grows together.Our hearts have been very close, but also very far away, but you didn't realize it.Do you really love me, or love only that part of me, and the remaining part, you can't understand.So the person who loves you may be just that part of me.When love is analyzed so rationally, I feel more relieved.
Just like“It’s all in my heart,but now I know exactly where.And I also felt like an assassin who had her mark.That was what I had to annihilate”
I don’t need to destroy, I just don’t generalize our love.I do not deliberately romanticize the love that once existed between us, nor do I denigrate or destroy it.I just face it quietly and enjoy the inspiration it brings to me,and safe attachment and unparalleled happiness.
This essay ends here. In fact, I didn't have so many thoughts from the beginning. I think this is the power of writing. Even, it will be translated into English, which is also the proof that "the current me is the real and complete me".Hope you are well and thank you for your passionate love for me.
