M: My goddness, I am always feel puzzled about my life and myself.
A: What is your trouble?
M:Today, I had a coversation with Fandi.She talked many things about me.And I found that I still had many troubles.For example, my hearing disability.
A:Do you still care about your disability?
M:Yes.Until now I still care about it. I always think about my illness and afraid that it would take place again.This year, my illness trouble me again and again. I have been deaf for five times. I hope that it would be the last time,however, it does not. Besides, when I want to have a chance to attend some activities. The first thing I think is my disability. Telling them about my disability in the first time.
A: Why do you tell them in the first time?Do you find the reason? You can ask these questions to yourself. I realize that you need to change your mind about it.
A:My dear, I will ask questions to you. Please answer me.
M:OK.
A: When you tell them about your disability, what do you want to get?
M:When I tell them, it meaning that I want them to take care of me, or giving a discount about fee.In a word, I want to get convenience.
A: Why do you want discount? Is it unaffordable for you?
M:No. My father tell me not to worry about the tuition fee. But..... I can't control myself. I always find money is not enough.I am afraid that I would be poor or do not have enough money.
A: That is strange. You have money,even though you are not rich, you are also not poor. So, why do you worry about it? Do you think that you do not earn money?Or you lose it forever?
M: I .....
A: You can answer in your heart. And now ,tell me the reason.
M: Iti is a wrong thought.I am caught in a vicious circle. Money is energy,so it is floot.When I pay the tuition fee, I also get the energy and money will come back in any form. Maybe money, or books, cloth.However, I always concern about what I do not have, ignore what I have. Fandi also said :"You should focus on what you have. So that I can be happy. Many people focus on what they do not have and then they ask for these things again and again. Wii they happy? No."
A:You are right. Pay attention,you need to practise it! It is very important! Another question is that why do you want them to take care of you? Does it mean the sympathy？Please be honest to me!
M: Maybe you are right. I want them to sympathize with me.
A: Why?
M: unconfident. Sometimes, I feel unconfident. This is the biggest trouble.Fandi tell me to accept my disability. What does it mean? How can I do?
A: This is your test. Before ending our dialogue, I have something to say. You are good. And you have progress about your disability, but it isn't enough.Look towards your heart and get your power. See you next time.
