我们多数人都满足于权威,因为权威给人持续感、确定感、保护感。但,如果你想领悟深层心理革命的含义,就必须告别权威,不能指望任何权威,不论权威是自己臆造出来的,还是由外人强加于他的。
那么,告别权威是可能的吗?不依赖个人经验权威,我能做到吗?甚至,当我抛却了所有外在权威——书籍、导师、僧侣神父、寺院教堂、信仰——我内心仍有一种感觉:至少我还可以依赖自己的判断、经验与分析。
但,我能依赖自己的经验、判断和分析吗?我的经验,是我的心灵枷锁的产物,同样你的经验也来自你的束缚,不是吗?或许我是在穆斯林、佛教或印度教环境长大的,我的经验取决于我的文化、经济、社会与宗教的背景,你也一样。经验靠得住吗?我能依赖经验作为人生指南,树立希望,建立愿景,从而通过评判为我倾注信心吗?须知,评判,是我过去所积累的记忆、经验及束缚与当下遭遇后的产物。
现在,我向自己提出了这些疑问,我明白问题所在,我知道唯有一种状态才能产生真实与自新,从而产生心灵革命。这个状态是,心灵彻底清空过去,不再有分析,不再有经验,不再有评判,不再有任何权威。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
Can I Rely on My Experience?
Most of us are satisfied with authority because it gives us a continuity, a certainty, a sense of being protected. But a man who would understand the implications of this deep psychological revolution must be free of authority, must he not? He cannot look to any authority, whether of his own creation or imposed upon him by another.
And is this possible? Is it possible for me not to rely on the authority of my own experience? Even when I have rejected all the outward expressions of authority—books, teachers, priests, churches, beliefs—I still have the feeling that at least I can rely on my own judgment, on my own experiences, on my own analysis.
But can I rely on my experience, on my judgment, on my analysis? My experience is the result of my conditioning, just as yours is the result of your conditioning, is it not? I may have been brought up as a Muslim or a Buddhist or a Hindu, and my experience will depend on my cultural, economic, social, and religious background, just as yours will. And can I rely on that? Can I rely for guidance, for hope, for the vision which will give me faith in my own judgment, which again is the result of accumulated memories, experiences, the conditioning of the past meeting the present?
… Now, when I have put all these questions to myself and I am aware of this problem, I see there can only be one state in which reality, newness, can come into being, which brings about a revolution. That state is when the mind is completely empty of the past, when there is no analyzer, no experience, no judgment, no authority of any kind.
JANUARY 22