a promissory old

luv Letter

This is the last time I say a lot of things

about you.

I'm very glad to meet you, Meanwhile, I am glad to say goodbye with a little pity but not so much.

Do you know how much you meant to me.

When I was a little girl，I saw lost of fantasties.

Most of the stories have the same happy ending: The prince and princess live together happily and forevermore.

I dream this kind of dream，even if I don't talk to lost of people.

Are you kidding me?

Maybe you don't believe in it ,either.

You are  the first boy who make me laugh and cry,happy and sorrow,boring and interesting.

You make me relize the female leading role's exaggerated emotions and actions are normal and forgivable.

You make me relize the feeling of jealousness.Because of the feeling,one person can do and show lost of stupid and lovely reaction to all the other women in the world. I am envious of all the woman who can play with you, have a funny communication with you,stay with you.

I am jealous of all the girls,women, ladies around you.

Sometimes,It makes me feel uncomfortable.

Maybe two or three years,If you said that you hang out with other girls,I would cry without any doubt.

We don't have any special relationships at that time,So I just cry but never express my sadness.

With the time passing by,I told myself a lot of times that you are free. I can't 、 shouldn't and don't have the right to let you do something.

Even if I am happy when I get your messages everytime.

But I don't want to talk to you firstly，I guess the boy will look down upon the relationship who are easily to be initiative.

When I was a college student， you said a sentence which enlighten my heart.

You said that I like a olive，a little tart，a little acerbity.

You said so much sentences which make me happy.

（Today，I take the train for one and a half hour and travel a few places with the feet，bicycle and bus， I am sleppy，(‘-ωก̀ )）

夢-Hallo: 1:43A.M. 7.23.2018

Now it's playing the song,not to much sadness, not so much excitement,not so much exaggerated lyrics.

I am replaying the song for  two reasons:

One is for writing the essay,

Another is echoing my inner heart.

When I look at my yesterday's pictures, I am not happy obviously.

Maybe it's because of you choose to not show up.

Maybe it's because of I am sad you don't show up.

Maybe it's the reason why I don't eat a lot delicious foods along the campus street.

The foods are yummy, but the Weibwurst is too fat, the matcha is too bitter,the Partridge egg is too much,the small roll of powder is delicious but I just don't want to eat a lot.

I can eat a lot of foods in the daily life. What a oddity.The reason is that I am disappointed that you don't show up.I am disappointed that I am not brave and self-willed enough to let you come. When you ask me does that meaning it is an invitation to ask you to join our traveling around CuiHu  Park ?How doesn't  it count  one?

Sometimes,I guess and get you are happy,but I don't respond to your emotions.

I get it lost of times.Caring about your emotions look like a habit which owned by me.

You know I aren't your style.

You know we are falling apart farther and farther.

You know you aren't my reliable person.

You know my temperament is self-willed and not honest to my heart.

You told me only I won't let you go, you would never go.

I sad so many times of goodbye to you,you always choose to look uopn it.I always like you again in the next day. Maybe because of you show so much  conditions to me, you always make me think of you are so cute. I know so lost things of you, there are so much informations of you are storing in my heart,

You are the first boy that I said I love you.

I have said  that I want to have a son with you.You know it's my fantasty to live with the first boy friend.

I don't have a lot heterosexual friends.You make me feel the boy I mean you are cute.

The Delta-DJ Whitesmith 2:27A.M.

The dog is lying around my heart. He always lies  next to me if I am home and he is out of the fixed iron cage or room.

No matter how ,you are the first person who have ever made me touch the feeling of being prefered.

I remember you have ever liked me just because of we are laughing when we are talking.

Does the relationship always changes from the friendship to love affair?

Does the happiness just exist at the beginning of the story?

There are so losts happy cases are counter to the belief.

We aren't befiting to each other again,maybe we have never get the nod.

I have ever said the if there is one day we apart, I will write a letter to you.

There are some sentences that you moved me.

1,You discuss the positioned place of your bed in the living room,whether there is a TV in the living room or drawing room.

2,You fall down because of the talking on the phone with me and paying so less attention to the floor.

(This is the reason why if you said you are walking ,I choose not to talk to you at the begining of the habit.

Later and later,you really wouldn't talk to me a lot, because of you are busy, busy with working, talking with your friends,having meeting.

I know you are really tired,so I am used to not get the reply of your messages.I get used to not to talking to you in the later.

Habit is magical.Firstly, I get used to your methods of respond. Lastly, I get used to not talking with you.)

3,You draw some funny pictures in your QQ numbers.These are wife and husband.

How could you say don't dislike me, no matter how much the degree of my stupidness,I am your husband.

I always feel satisfied when I think of your funny actions.

4,I'm sleppy, good night.

There is a saying that Only leaving Zixia Fairy can make him become Qitiandasheng.

I guess it's the price of growing,maybe you can call it's developing.

We are both can be the better person.Don't you think so?

In fact,I am not sure the way towards future,but in the way, we are on the street.

Be happy .

happy:adj.

1.愉快的，高兴的，(感到)满意的

2.幸福的，美满的

3.(表示)乐意的

Good night.

I bet I can be a better me.

Of course you will.

See you.

ヾ(´｀;)ゝ