看书不如抄书！ 老天给了我悠闲地中年，喔内心忐忑，总觉得自己配不上现在这安逸的生活，可又没有勇气要踏出这个舒适圈。我有各种理由和原因，其实就是害怕改变，没有自信！
惧怕改变，又恐惧安逸，人格分裂！ 不可否认这种现象的客观背景，我们国家没有欧美那么好的福利，所以我们极度缺少安全感，只有没日没夜的工作直到退休，按月领取退休金了，我们才敢让自己空闲下来。
即使现在我们有存款有产业，我们还是会没完没了的担心未知的明天，我们还是会贪得无厌的想要更多。我就想和本性死磕偷懒一下，可是内心的挣扎却无时不在提醒我，做点什么，学点什么，想一点什么，规划一点什么！ 我觉得我就是这个时代小人物的代表，无时无刻都在焦虑！焦虑明天到底会发生什么！焦虑我是否可以平安度过明天！ 其实上帝那么忙，你问他我到底应该干嘛他都懒得理你！ 造化弄人，我也想造福苍生，拯救世人，可是老天就安排我这样浑浑噩噩度日！不废话了，读书画画尝试让自己平静，我不想做生活的奴隶，又不想坐吃等死！ 慢慢希望能遇到更好的自己！
今天看了英文版李光耀的自传，很多字不认识就查字典，写着写着就背下来了，就发现我英文不好就一个原因，懒！ ！！太懒了！
The memoirs of Singapore
I had not intended to write my memoirs and I did not keep a diary. To do so would inhibited my work.
Five years after I stepped down as Prime Minister, my old friend and colleague Lim Kim Sam , chair man of Singapore Press Holding ( SPH) convinced me that young would read my memoirs since they were interested in the book of my old speeches that SPH had published in Chinese . I was also trouble by apparent over-confidence a generation that has only known stability, growth and prosperity. I thought our people should understand how vulnerable Singapore was and is. The dangers that beset us. How nearly did not make it. Most of all, I hope that they will know the honest and effective government , public order and personal security, economic and special progress did not come about as a natural course events.
Haven’t finished, see all of you tomorrow! Have a nice day! Thanks
