你勾画了一副怡人的心像，并渴望成真，其实那只是你欲望的投射。你的真实形象本是这样的，但你不喜欢；你想变成那副形象，因为你喜欢。理想，是一种自我投射；投射到对立面，其实是你真实形象的延伸，并非真正的对立面，而是真实面目的延续，或许稍作修饰而已。

心理投射，是一种固执己见；心理冲突，就是向投射的幻象奋力挣扎。你奋力拼搏，想变成个人物，那理想形象就成了你的一部分，但理想只是你的心理投射。看吧，心智就是这样自耍把戏！你为誓言而奋斗，你追逐自己的投射与幻影。你性情暴戾，奋力修行平和，那是你的理想；但理想只是你真实形象所投射的幻影，只不过换了一个名字而已。

当你看明白这场自我耍弄的把戏，虚幻就被你看穿了。追逐幻象，是一种分裂性力量，一切冲突、一切追逐异变，都是内心的分裂。当看清心智自导自演的这场把戏，此时唯有真实的自己；当一切异变、理想、比较与谴责从内心剥除，当心智的结构崩塌，那么真实的你已经产生了彻底转化。但只要你还为自己的真实形象冠名，则你的心与真相之间仍存在对待关系。冠名，就是运用记忆，这是心智构造的本质所在；当你不再为自己的真实形象冠名，那么你的真实形象就消融了。唯在这样的转化中，内心的分裂才能融合。

——克里希那穆提《生命书：365观心日课》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）

All Becoming Is Disintegration

The mind has an idea, perhaps pleasurable, and it wants to be like that idea, which is a projection of your desire. You are this, which you do not like, and you want to become that, which you like. The ideal is a self-projection; the opposite is an extension of what is; it is not the opposite at all, but a continuity of what is, perhaps somewhat modified.

The projection is self-willed, and conflict is the struggle towards the projection…. You are struggling to become something, and that something is part of yourself. The ideal is your own projection. See how the mind has played a trick upon itself. You are struggling after words, pursuing your own projection, your own shadow. You are violent, and you are struggling to become nonviolent, the ideal; but the ideal is a projection of what is, only under a different name.

When you are aware of this trick that you have played upon yourself, then the false as the false is seen. The struggle towards an illusion is the disintegrating factor. All conflict, all becoming is disintegration. When there is an awareness of this trick that the mind has played upon itself, then there is only what is. When the mind is stripped of all becoming, of all ideals, of all comparison and condemnation, when its own structure has collapsed, then the what is has undergone complete transformation. As long as there is the naming of what is, there is relationship between the mind and what is; but when this naming process—which is memory, the very structure of the mind—is not, then what is is not. In this transformation alone is there integration.

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