如果你修炼觉知力，就会形成习惯，乏味而痛苦。觉知力，是不能修炼的；凡修炼而成的，就不再是觉知力，因为修炼意味着培养习惯、运用意志、努力用功；凡努力，则必生扭曲。
你不仅可以觉知外在世界——飞鸟、影子、翻腾不息的大海、绿树、清风、乞丐、过路的豪车，同时也可以觉知内心，觉知内心的紧张与冲突。你不会指责一只飞鸟，相反你会观察、欣赏飞鸟之美。但，当你一想到内心的冲突，就会自责或辩白，此时你就不能无拣择、不辩白地观察内心冲突。
去觉知你的思维与感受，不认同，也不抗拒，这并不是痛苦乏味之事。但如果你把觉知力当作目标与结果去追求、去猎取，就会加剧冲突，单调漫长的对抗之旅便开始了。
——克里希那穆提《生命书：365观心日课》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）
Awareness Cannot Be Disciplined
If awareness is practiced, made into a habit, then it becomes tedious and painful. Awareness cannot be disciplined. That which is practiced is no longer awareness, for in practice is implied the creation of habit, the exertion of effort and will. Effort is distortion.
There is not only the awareness of the outer—of the flight of birds, of shadows, of the restless sea, the trees and the wind, the beggar and the luxurious cars that pass by—but also there is the awareness of the psychological process, the inward tension and conflict. You do not condemn a bird in flight: you observe it, you see the beauty of it. But, when you consider your own inward strife, you condemn it or justify it. You are incapable of observing this inward conflict without choice or justification.
To be aware of your thought and feeling without identification and denial is not tedious and painful; but in search of a result, an end to be gained, conflict is increased and the tedium of strife begins.
JUNE 18
