you know the worst thing you do is disappear. I know you need time and space to rest , but I want you to tell me before you go.
I guessed you maybe went home or somewhere . you always talk to me if you are in a good condition. but I still waited for you. last night I couldn't sleep then watched a drama till 3am. I won't tell you such silly things. but I hope I can remember. I don't sleep or can't sleep because I miss you. i wake up at midnight to see if you send messages to me.
i want to go back home too. my mom told me that they are making dumplings together. with my aunts and my sister, sister in law and their children. suddenly I find the meaning of relatives, you can visit them at Saturday or Sunday and thus you won't feel lonely or boring. you can talk you can do something together.
Then I'm worried actually, I don't have cousin to visit. I don't know.
a girl asked me about medicine of stomachache. I told her to have porridge and don't eat cold and spicy food. I know to take care of others. but I don't take care of myself. I'm still coughing but my lunch was spicy . it is really cold today and feel like I can be blowing up to sky hahaha.
I asked that again and you didn't answer again. if this time you go to Shanghai by yourself I won't forgive you really. last time you went to cut your hair by yourself while you say we can go together. last time you say you will come the other day at last you didn't come and didn't tell me. you say you want to show me a Korean style restaurant, at last you didn't do. I remember all the things. you always say you never do . I should not believe you now. should not expect any thing .
