Recently, it becomes common that i feel suddenly moody when i am alone at home. I try to think about the person that i had a crush on. It seems that everything could be fixed if there is a WE, the loneliness feeling, the sense of meaningless of the life, craving for being loved unconditionally,  being needed by someone. I am not sure. maybe only if  I fix it all by myself, it is truely solved. Hope the gratitude jounal will help.

1. learned to do one simple italian pasta. and it tastes good.

2. A previous postdoc of my supervi teached me some analytical knowledge in the lab. I like her

3. Insist in learning French using Doulingo for 13 days. well done

4. Read books about how to become humorous.

5. Realized that I should learn to love myself more.  keep going