日期：2021.04.17

【人物学习】

G老师：

这周又在改稿。寻求了G老师的帮助。

自己觉得稿件差不多了，但是经过G老师的审核，发现了各种各样的问题。

也才发现说自己给别人改稿那简直太粗糙了。因为G老师改的过程，完全就是基于对你方法的理解之上的看出问题，深入进去。而不是浅层表面的语法错误。很多时候，更是在与讨论，看是否有存在歧义的地方。也才发现说原来讨论这么重要。不同于其他老师，可能发一个文档简单描述一下问题即可，高老师更着重于当面交流，因为这样很多东西可以第一时间阐述清楚，不明白的地方也能够讲清楚、讲明白。

也突然发现说，自己有的公式个别的地方都还没有弄的特别清楚，就摘抄上去了，也不去看下表述上是否ok，或者有没有错误的存在。其实是不对的。做事情的严谨程度就在于你所写的东西是否能够复现，并且讲的明白清楚。而不是让别人看到就望而却步。

虽然这样交流改起来真的很慢，却也逐渐在培养了我写文章的思路和过程，而不是有时候真的是一排脑筋就写一些字上去的过程了。

【作品学习与读书】

萨古鲁：觉知力——提升你的生命质量

Sadhguru looks at how we can use our likes and dislikes to cultivate awareness, so that it seeps into every aspect of our life.

Sadhguru（萨古鲁）剖析了我们如何通过个人好恶来培养觉知力，让它渗透到我们生命中的每个层面。

Sadhguru: Everyone is making choices, but choices made in unawareness are compulsions. Let us say you get angry right now. It is actually your choice to be angry. Somewhere, you believe that is the way to handle the situation, but the choice is made in such unawareness that it is a compulsion. It is happening compulsively on a different level. So you are living by choice, but choices are being made without awareness – unconscious choices. The whole thing is to shift into making conscious choices.

Sadhguru（萨古鲁）：每个人都在做选择，但在无觉知状态下做的选择都是强迫性的。比方说，你现在很生气，实际上是你选择了生气。在某个层面，你认为这是应对情形的方式，但这个选择是在无觉知状态下做的，是强迫性的。它是出于一种不同层面的强迫性。所以，你是在通过选择来生活，但这些选择是无觉知的情况下做出的——是无意识的选择。而我们的目的就是转换成有意识的选择。

The idea of cultivating awareness is so that it slowly seeps into your life. One thing it does is, it enhances the quality of your life.

培养觉知力的目的就是为了让它慢慢地渗透到你的生命中。它所做的一件事是，提升你的生命品质。

Even with a simple act like waking up in the morning, the unconscious choice is that you do not want to wake up. When the sun rises, you want to pull the sheet up a little higher over your face. This is the unconscious choice. Your physical body wants to remain in the bed for some more time. For so many reasons, it does not want to get up. There are so many aspects of life and so many limitations in your experience of life, that in many ways, unconsciously, you are not really looking forward to the day.

即使是一个简单的动作例如早上起床，你不想起床就是一个无意识的选择。当太阳升起时，你想把被单拉高一点儿盖住脸。这是一个无意识的选择。你的身体想在床上多躺一会儿。它有很多理由不想起床。生命中有如此多面向——你的生命体验有如此多限制和障碍，使得你在很多方面，无意识地，并不是很期待这一天。

Let us say tomorrow, you have planned to go on a picnic. Before the sun rises, you would wake up on that day. Consciously, you have decided the previous day and you are excited. You are looking forward to tomorrow. It is a joyful experience. Otherwise, unconsciously, you try to pull the sheet higher up over your face because this light is not something you are looking forward to. With light comes today's stock prices, with light comes today's problems, with light comes the whole world into your life. You are unconsciously trying to screen yourself from that.

比方说，你计划明天去野餐。在太阳升起之前，你就会起床。下意识地，在前一天你已经决定了早起，你很兴奋。你期待着明天。这是一个快乐的体验。否则，无意识地，你会试图把被单拉高一点儿盖住脸，因为这个光，不是你所期待的。随着光而来的是股票价格，随着光而来的是今天的问题，随着光而来的，是进入你生命的整个世界。你在试图无意识地把自己屏蔽起来。

But now, we make a conscious choice to wake up. Even after you wake up, the unconscious choice is that you want to drink a cup of coffee. The body feels comfortable with that. But now you can make a conscious choice, “No, I will have a cold water bath and do my yogasanas.”

但现在，我们有意识地选择起床。即使起床后，你又会无意识地想去喝一杯咖啡。因为那样身体会感觉舒适。但现在你可以有意识地做一个决定，“不，我要洗个冷水澡，然后做我的瑜伽体式。”

Doing What’s Uncomfortable

做不舒服的事

One reason why ascetic paths were set is simply because of this: you start doing things that are naturally not comfortable for you. If you have to do something that you do not like, you can only do it consciously. There is no other way to do it. Things that you like, you can do compulsively, but things that you do not like, you can only do consciously. That is why the ascetic path. You start doing everything consciously. There is no other way to be. You are practicing how to be conscious in various situations in your life.

设立苦修之路的一个原因只在于：你开始做那些对你来说天生就不喜欢的事。如果你得做你不喜欢的事，你只能带着意识去做。没有别的方式。你喜欢的事，你可以带着强迫性去做，但你不喜欢的事，你只能带着意识去做。这就是为什么有苦修。你开始有意识地做每件事。没有别的方式。你在练习如何在人生的不同情形下保持意识。

When the sun rises, you want to pull the sheet up a little higher over your face. This is the unconscious choice.

当太阳升起时，你想把被单拉高一点儿盖住脸。这就是一个无意识的选择。

When you are hungry, the natural urge is to grab food and eat. But you make a conscious choice, “I am very hungry, but I am not eating.” To stay away from food, there is no other choice except being conscious about it. To go and eat, you do not need consciousness, you can simply go and grab it when you are hungry. These simple things are set up in life so that you start doing things more consciously.

当你饿了，自然你会有强烈的冲动抓起食物吃。但你有意识地做一个选择，“我很饿，但我不吃。” 想要远离食物，唯一的方式就是对其保持意识。去吃，你不需要觉知，你饿的时候就会去抓起食物吃。我们设立好生命中这些简单的事情，这样你开始更有意识地做事。

Maybe initially your awareness is only for half-an-hour a day, but gradually you are bringing awareness into various aspects of life. The idea of cultivating awareness is so that it slowly seeps into your life. One thing it does is, it enhances the quality of your life. But that is not everything. The main aspect is that if you can maintain awareness in various kinds of situations in life, only then will you ever become capable of being aware at that moment when you have to part with the body. Otherwise, that never arises in your life. 

也许刚开始你的觉知一天中只有半小时，但渐渐地你把觉知带入到生命的方方面面。培养觉知力的目的就是，为了让它慢慢地渗透到你的生命中。它所做的一件事是，提升你的生命品质。但那并非一切。主要方面在于，如果你能在生命中的各种情形下保持觉知，只有这样你才有能力在你不得不离开身体的那一刻保持觉知。否则，它永远不会在你的生命中发生。

【思考】

遗忘：

每天早上都有先写晨间日记的习惯，但由于昨天早上9点30有会议，又要去找老师修改稿，于是早上一来，就想说先改稿，后续再补充。结果不曾想，错过了那个时间，一整天都在改稿。直到今天早晨起来才意识到oh，no昨天漏了一篇。

嗯，所以，很多事情是逐步形成的习惯。一旦没有在那个地点那个时间做那件事情，就需要更多的注意力来督促，否则，很容易就遗忘掉了。所以，现在的瑜伽我一定会在早上做，实在没有时间才会移到别的时间，但总会觉得很不好，时刻惦念着自己还有一件事情没有做。但如果做完了，就好像是任务列表画了勾，一天心情都很舒畅。这就是习惯，固定时间点做固定的事情。

身体有了那个记忆，就会在那个点去激活这个部分。如果没有养成习惯，便出现了拖延、不先做的情绪在里面。所以，很多事情不是我们不想做活不愿意做，而是没有给予其应有的刺激和习惯。因为没有习惯，想要建立起来一个习惯就显得难上加难。所以一开始要想建立一个习惯，一定是持续21天以上，才有可能持续下去。所以，生活本就是一系列习惯慢慢的叠加，到最后形成自然，每天去做。

也希望自己能够不断增加新的好习惯，和去除想要拖延的心情。逐步变得井井有条起来。

【梦境】

没有

【每日反思与改过】

半夜被蚊子咬醒，十分生气，真恨不得立刻捏死它。后来想想，何必呢。蚊子也得生存，而且在这个世界上存留了这么久，和谐共处吧。起来冲了澡也就不痒了，再继续睡一会。因为唯有共存才是硬道理，而不是谁干掉谁。