所谓性问题,究竟指什么?是指性爱本身,还是动心起念?当然不是指性爱。对你来说,性正如吃饭,本身不是问题。但如果你整天只琢磨吃饭,除此之外没什么可想的,那就成问题了。
为什么你如此热衷于性?显然你是这样吧?电影、杂志、小说、女性穿着,这一切都在激发着你的性联想。为什么你沉浸其中?为什么你满脑子都是性?先生们,女士们,为什么?这是你的问题。为什么?为什么性成了你生活的核心问题?生活中有如此多的问题呼唤你关注,需要你去关注,而你却把全部心思倾注于性。为什么你的脑子里塞满了性?究竟发生了什么?因为性是你最后的逃避方式,是彻底“忘我”的方式——你暂时地、至少是片刻地忘掉了自我,除此之外你没法达到忘我,因为生活中你所做的其他一切都在强化自我。你的生意、你的宗教、你的神灵、你的领导、你的政治与经济行为、你的逃避、你的社会活动、你加入此党拒绝彼党……所有这一切都在突出、强化你的自我。生活中,如果通向最后逃避、通向完全忘我的路径只有一条——哪怕只是几秒钟的忘我,那么你必然抓住不放,因为那是你唯一的快乐时刻。
所以,只要你还没弄懂清自己考虑问题的隐秘心思,那么性就会成为异常难解、异常复杂的问题。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
译按:赌、毒,亦同理。
The Ultimate Escape
What do we mean by the problem of sex? Is it the act, or is it a thought about the act? Surely, it is not the act. The sexual act is no problem to you any more than eating is a problem to you, but if you think about eating or anything else all day long because you have nothing else to think about, it becomes a problem to you….
Why do you build it up, which you are obviously doing? The cinemas, the magazines, the stories, the way women dress, everything is building up your thoughts of sex. And why does the mind build it up, why does the mind think about sex at all? Why, sirs and ladies? It is your problem. Why? Why has it become a central issue in your life? When there are so many things calling, demanding your attention, you give complete attention to the thought of sex. What happens, why are your minds so occupied with it? Because that is a way of ultimate escape, is it not? It is a way of complete self-forgetfulness. For the time being, at least for the moment, you can forget yourself—and there is no other way of forgetting yourself. Everything else you do in life gives emphasis to the “me,” to the self. Your business, your religion, your gods, your leaders, your political and economic actions, your escapes, your social activities, your joining one party and rejecting another—all that is emphasizing and giving strength to the “me.” … When there is only one thing in your life that is an avenue to ultimate escape, to complete forgetfulness of yourself if only for a few seconds, you cling to it because that is the only moment you are happy….
So, sex becomes an extraordinarily difficult and complex problem as long as you do not understand the mind that thinks about the problem.
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